I slept absolutely appallingly last night. Every worry possible hit me so I hardly got any sleep. It’s horrible and it’s left me feeling rather vulnerable.
Without sounding like a total mental case, it’s left over from Father’s Day I think. I’ve been doing reasonably well mentally until the last few days but I think that’s just meant that it’s time to briefly implode. It’s not nice.
The irrational part of my brain wants to walk away from absolutely everything and just get away for a bit. The problem is the thing I most want to get away from is my brain. Which isn’t really possible. Damn. Going out for walks seem to help a little bit at least.
I probably still sound like a nutter but this is cathartic to write so shush and keep the white coat men away from me, thank you 😉
Anyway, because of this mood I’m not going to ramble on for hundreds upon hundreds of words. I already feel like I’m being too honest really.
Simply put I want to feel like me again. I haven’t felt truly like me in 2 years now (unless you count when drunk which is a bit worrying really and why I don’t get drunk very often!) and some days it bugs me more than others. Evidently today is one of those days where it really bugs me.
For now though, I’m going to go relax for a bit and eat some chocolate. The mood will pass eventually.